Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Good bye cruel winter

I've just had it with winter...and it's still December. What is a wombster to do!!!???  I spoke with my elder neighbor today and she, too is disgusted by this crappy snow/ice and the threat it poses to the upright, and those who would prefer to remain that way.

I am amazed at kittens, however, and that is because I went to T.'s house again today under the guise of massaging her and her mom....and there are 6 kittens in the bathroom. These kitties were apparently very sick with diaherra and T. was wonderful enough to see them through it. She came out of their bathroom this morning, declaring there was half solid kiity poop in there, (and saying maybe that was a sign that she was crazy cat lady because she cares about stuff like that.) But really, for someone who is as young and lovely as she is, it is truely a wonder that she donates so much time to giving her all to felines of all sorts, even babies who are on the brink of death. But there is something about baby kitties that melts me to the core(and perhaps makes winter ignorable). One in particular was so loving, just purred so easily and wiggeled and was a little slut that I fell in love. I know better than to even think of bringing any home, because of many reasons...but I may have to go back with just the intent of sitting and loving babies(I'll have to take my camera), but I think I will wait until there is no question that they are good and healthy.
I have done a tiny bit of remodeling to the Prince's palace and put a cardboard front on it that cuts out a bit of the wind I think and he now has more of a cubby hole to burrow into...but the racoons I think have taken to tearing out his bowl to look for food...it was evident that somone had gone and thrown his bowl on the ground and trundled onward...everyone has to eat I guess.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

faces faces faces


     I am thinking back on the         fantastic face images I saw in Bisbee and how I was so engrossed with the artistic way of the town. I am being pulled there, if not in body, in spirit.  I know that I have some ancient history in that area from my own life(with my parents having been stationed in Ft. Huachuca, and having left their existance on the planet there) but there is something deeper that pulls me, maybe it's the land and how familiar that is, but the fabulous creative drive there also frees a part of me that is held in check most of the time...I feel that most folks don't understand how much it means to me to have full expression, but I felt a comfort in Bisbee that has been growing as I reflect upon it. Anyway, here are some of the faces that pulled, impressed, intoxicted and are some of my favorite libations I can guzzle and swizzle!! In fact I could be a total dipsomaniac;                                 swilling,   swigging,    and tipplerizing on art.


Triumph in the computer skill world!!

I am so darn proud of myself!! I somehow(I don't know really how) got photos from my trip to be in a folder that I can access for my blog. For people who have had computers in their lives since kindergarden(or before) this is no big deal. But for those who have only been working with computers for a decade or less this is not minor.
So what this means is that you will see more of the pictures I took, so you may want to go back to previous postings to see the pics that go with the text...hee hee.

I am excited to share, with who, I don't really know...but if you find yourself snooping around check out some of the photos...I think they are pretty cool.

Friday, December 25, 2009

merry flipping christ


It's the 25th of Friggin December and I'll be blown with the snow if it isn't just miserable out...all day. My friend from high school came over and watched us drink some sparkling apple cider and eat some really hard biscotti (he wasn't too hungry/thirsty...not a noontime party-er, I guess...)
He is now working for a (business that has several residences) home that has some mentally/emotionally unstable folks living there, I think he said three of them... and was up a good deal of the night cleaning this one fellow up from pooping on himself and  inable to sleep and being highly aggitated...which put him (my friend) on wake-up patrol. Apparently if a careperson can be at the home and sleeping they are paid minimum wage, and if they are up and dealing with the residents, then they get waking wages, (which seems like another example of employers taking advantage of employees and paying the absolute lowest they can think of. GGGrrrrr. Of course the caretaker has to sleep with one eye open anyway, in case something is brewing...I know because I've done that work before!! It's not such a lovely a piece of cake as one might think...and in fact requires limitless patience and observation as the residents are highly medicated and are apt to do some rather strange behaviors, even on good days.This is not to mention that the waking pay is under 10 bucks an hour and I'll be@)# $(*&)!#$%^ed  if some CEO at a hospital [or any other high income facility]...(and makes hundreds of thousands of dollars a year) ever has to do anything that is remotely as stressful or gross in some instances....GGGGGGGrrrrr some more!!!!!) Anyway, my friend has been promoted to full-time work and will not be spending the nights with the residents, and that is good news. Finding employment even vaguely related to his socialwork degree has been way difficult. We really need to think this out more carefully as a society. We are very quick to fund any number of wars at exorbitant cost, but when it comes to being there for people with special needs, or really ordinary needs for that matter, we fail time and time again.
I wonder if Jesus was actually as compassionate as he is reported to be, what he would think of this whole situation and how he would change stuff so that it was keeping everyone's best interest at heart. Don't get me wrong, I don't pretend to know Jesus on a personal level,(however I have gotten the basics on him), but I often wonder about all the masses of folks who think he's the cat's meow and want to live in his example, (and they seem to be every flippin' everywhere), why are we not doing a better job taking care of one another?!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

'twas the night before Christmas...

I am listening to the poor Prince who is down in the basement bathroom, being protected from the 2 degree low that we are forecast to have tonight.(When I called at 11PM it was exactly zero, and then the wind began to howl about 1:23 precisely!) He is very sad and yowling, which is odd for him. He is a very quiet guy. I sat and brushed and talked with him for a long time, but he still didn't seem to quiet himself. I may have to go read him a story after a bit. (He fell asleep when I read the Weight of Water...it's not a very riveting book...)
It has been a cold day all day and it seems like a great time for some vegtable rice soup. That would be a great thing to have for the carpenderman I share (heart and house)space with, since he has been busy doing a bathroom remodel for the last few days...
I have had a nice day of baking, and cleaning and having Lynx, my good friend over for some tea. We listened to Pandora for awhile and talked about Juda and what is going on with all our kids. Family tensions are running high for her and she is rather upset by all that, understandably. Family can be most delightful and trying at the same time. It is a good time to do some meditation and yoga I think. It is hopeful that the days are getting longer now ...life will be brighter in the coming months.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Morning Mist


I leave(Texas)tomorrow. This morning I got up and had some of that rocket fuel coffee and went out walking, further than perhaps I have before. I was attempting to find a place that has not been covered by concrete and pavement, and I did find a place like that a fence that has markers along it to indicate that it has been surveyed for future building. Fudge!! I did also find a big owl in one of the remaining trees very patiently waiting for a tastey morsel to show it's face. The mist and rolling clouds were lovely and nourishing until I turned to face the wind which is decisively bone chilling....but not too bad. I know I have to toughen up to survive at home, I think they are warming up at a bit, at least I hope. ( I also saw a coyote trotting along the fence early this morning, only this time it was on the house side of the fence and not the other side...looking for some cat for breakfast, perhaps. Someone's declawed cat has been missing for a couple of weeks, and I am supposing it was a good meal for those who are out on the prowl.)
Anyway, I found a little frog pancake on the road on my way home. Tires had rolled over it enough to make this once perky anphibian into a leathery chunk of debris on the concrete. One of the problems with autos is that the machine can roll on top of something smooching the life out of it and never know what it has just done. I sometimes wonder how badly the animal population has sacrificed it's memebers so that we as humans can travel as quickly as possible from point A to point B. I shutter to think what those numbers are...the body count would be worse than any ethnic cleansing that we have waged on each other. I wonder sometimes if I might be from another planet to give a flying thought about it. Hmmmm.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

No pink houses in this Texas


I miss the colors of Bisbee ...                

(But this is not Bisbee, folks.)

Here I am landed someplace near Denton, Texas  and I re-commit that I will hopefully never live in a gated community where all is the same and predictability rules. Yuck. Give me the open range, thanks. I am here to help with my father-in-law who is fairly self sufficient, but gets dizzy( light headed he calls it... I'm not very sure I know the subtle differences of that topic) and needs maybe a check on once in a while more than anything.



The house where I am staying oddly backs up to Ross Perot's ranch and there are coyotes and bugs out there.( I found a perfect dehydrated little frog in the Kentucky blue grass sod that seems to go on forever...thrilled to find it however.) The other night I went to see a film (called Cookie's Fortune which I enjoyed very much!!) and when I was going into the "clubhouse" there were coyotes howling up a storm and singing to the nearly full moon. I was very appreciative of them and  appologised to them for having the humans smack dab in the middle of their paths that their families have had most likely for hundreds of centuries. There has been a recent bulldozing of trees and shrubs to make room for oil drilling that is happening all over the borders of this little "safe haven." I am glad to hear there has been some public outcry on this issue, but the economy has been the wrench that controls that activity more than anything, I think.  There is heavy machinery resting within a couple hundred yards of the back fence and that is grating on the nerves and sensibilities. There are big piles of woody vegetation that have been wrecked for this project. Thoughts of horrible little vigilanty activities bubble up in my mind...am I really made of criminal material? HMMMMMMMM we'll have to study that one carefully. The jury is still out on that one. (Depends on who you talk to I think.)


Anyway, word from home is 10 inches of snow and a high temperature of under15 degrees. That makes this misty and cool weather much welcome and not that bad. I will be back in the winterish stuff soon and so I need to go out and soak up some more of this southerly weather, and I think wearing two pair of pants from the airport to my house may be an option.The Soltice will be here in about two weeks or so and then, magically the days will grow longer and the time will come to start seedlings and get all excited and ansy for the coming spring, right? Right.

Friday, November 27, 2009

BusyBustlingBoilingBisbee

TODAY is called Black Friday. Yikes, all that was quiet about Bisbee was taken away today...the hordes are here. It became apparent that it is indeed a tourist town, and what keeps it alive are tourists, and it's true that I am one,(and I did buy some jewelry and honey and postcards) but I am not much of a fan of the crowds. We have canceled plans to eat out tonight and nibble on left overs, of which there are plenty. I have been scooting around taking pictures of patterns that catch my eye and different ways folks have decorated their yards and stuff I might see that has many conjugations. Tomorrow we have plans to venture off to Benson, which I believe has little or no appeal to the masses, but our main purpose is to hook up with some folks from Tucson and are good, good friends. I think we can manage to have a picnic and  a place to have conversation. Here's some of the photos, I am having the best time taking them!! We had a lovely (but massive) baking and eating day yesterday.It's SO fun to have this time here and to hide away at the J&R hotel...



I'm going to try this again. I am not having the best luck with my posting, but if at first you don't succeed...



I am loving the diversity of the natural and the human inspired creations, and it is apparent that the"juice" is flowing here. I am also nourished by that blue in the sky, and the transformation of an old mining town into a dig for the artist types. People seem friendly and fairly down to earth. I was thinking that mostly there were young folks here, but today, I saw some of the elders tromping around with walkers and canes(these are my people!!) Today is the last of the way warm days before I leave on Monday. The forecast is mentioning cooler temps with chances of rain and ...snow(?!!!) I'll just have to run away to Texas.









Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Bisbee


I landed into this funny place called Bisbee on Monday evening. I've been here before but not for about 45 or 46 years. Things were a bit different then and I was only 7 years old in January 1964. I went to the courthouse today and somehow it was a tiny bit familiar, but a lot of what I remember has been modernized.

I came to see my daughter Juda who adopted me some time ago. She(and the side kick dudefriend,R-man, and dogis) has an adorable house(all decorated with shells, rocks and shells) and works downtown at the coffee roasters. We walked up and down the hills earlier today and very ingenous and bold that humans have figured out how to stay on the sides of canyons and build all sorts of constructs to dwell in, many of which have disappeared with the wind and dust, but some whispers remain, steps that go nowhere...a wall here or an ore car that was used as a crapper there.

There are quite a few creative folks who have painted bright designs or outrageous colors on random houses...some murals and sculptures and contageous energy. I stopped by the chocolate shoppe and asked about their hours. ( I didn't buy anything there, yet...)I guess they are just opening after a bit of time off...




Anyway, it's refreshing and invigorating to visit a fun community like this and see how the kids are doing down here. Looking forward to having a great(buttered up) holiday and then blasting off to my next stop in Denton, Texas!! Word to y'all eating tomorrow...pace yourselves and keep some time for walking in your day, you may need it for more than one reason. Love to all you friends and fellow inhabitants of the planet.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

The brains that study the brain


After shoveling and scraping and shivering for awhile, I drove slowly over to the Hilton Hotel to listen to those who know more about aging than I ever even thought about...(it was a conference about aging) about how the mitochondria has bits that have markers of aging parts, how older skeletal muscle recovers compared to those of the young adult...and grafts and charts after charts of data collected for many years. It's interesting to hear scientists talk of their fields, especially when you have little or no idea of what it is that obviously has them so absorbed and thrilled...it is evident that the passion is there and that they have formed their world around this little aspect of life that they have dived head first into researching. I was hoping for more stories, but there was very little of that; although some had little quirky stories of other researchers or each other...I think some of them haven't really had much of a social life with many other beings than mice. It also made me think of how mice, and maybe other species, have been giving of their bodies and minds so that these types can make their grafts and charts. (This is not to say that I am particularly fond of mice, but after I looked at many slides of their sliced and stained brains... stained with dye so that we could see that they had Alzheimer's or Parkinson's ...it made me think of their supreme sacrifice.)
Anyway, tonight might just be our coldest night yet, and I'm thinking it was not long ago I had taken pictures of sunflowers blooming in the yard. Ahh, how time marches on!!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Marble, farble, garble



























Marble is supposedly compressed clay, and, indeed, when you cut it globs of clay form on the saw blade.(we did cut off one edge) It is seductively smooth and tantalizingly gorgeous in the colors and patterns it holds in it's body. I'm in love.
This piece has many flaws and a crack...did it get dropped? Don't know anything of it's history, but the beauty prevails, for sure. There are many variations of red, black, grey and even some orange and green. There are shapes of two eyes in the designs, which is difficult to capture in a picture, (and even more difficult for me to get on this post apparently, but I will keep trying as I learn more about how to do this!) It is a wild aspect to see that in the rock.
I'm also impressed by the weight of this slab we carefully rolled and walked, scootched , jacked, and finally slid into place. It is a pleasure to glide the hands over it and feel how smooth and cool it is. WOW; it's a way out experience!! The diversity of what the earth/universe provides is mind boggling and humbling to know we are made of the same stuff, actually.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

It takes alot of patience!

I would like to get the siding up on the green house right away. There is much to do before that can happen. First we have to cut the flashing for the bottom of the outside of the wall, then bend it and fit it, and nail it up...then we have to put some tar paper up and staple that in place and then rip the boards on a saw so that the edges are even (it once was a fence that didn't have even edges) and then put up a nailing board, and ,and and. It's a little like sewing or baking or many other worthwhile projects. The end is not an easy destination to get to, and it may sound easy to do until you examine all the pieces to get there.
Last night we took a break and hung out with our card game friends and played a number of games, the most ridiculous and fun I think was Go Fish using different accents for the asking part. (I had totally forgotten that you ask some one if they have a 2 or something else). This was very difficult to come up with accents with Buck Owens blaring in the background...he brought out the southern twang in all of us. B. had a good Jamaican accent which I think he must have picked up in Panama. I must have come home with a good vibe because the cat sat on top of me and purred all night even after I tossed her to the foot of the bed to go potty a couple of times. Anyway, it was good to hear of every one's adventures in home buying, the thought of home buying and all the exhaustion that plays in to stay afloat in the working world.
I have started to saw some wood for burning (yes! my shoulder is working again!!)and rummaging through the piles of wood I have buried treasures in...and I found the nicest wood this morning, that is very dense and has red bark,and already cut into stove sized pieces...don't have any idea what kind of wood it is, but I like it!!
It's supposed to get windy this afternoon, and especially along the foothills...and where do we live? You guessed it.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

I am impressed that I didn't have to call the daughter in to get the pictures on the blog! Cool. I also have now rearranged the order of the pics and relocated this post! Wow. This is not typical...to say the least.
As you can see the greenhouse is a work in progress, but Oh!! what a process it has been. Today I sealed around the door with some foamy stuff that should keep the breeze out, and we lugged a piece of marble in that someone gave us and actually managed to get it up on the far west barrel to use as a table. I was day dreaming about how we would get that piece of marble up that high and it occured to me to use the jack we have (that is actually a post puller), and it worked real slick; nobody got hurt! At some point I'll have to take a picture of the marble. It is real purdy. I am one of the happiest girls on the planet. Indeed!

Monday, October 19, 2009

It's already fall !!

We have been rather consumed by the greenhouse construction and it is almost getting to a place where we can slow down. Today we put on the middle 2nd layer of glass, which means that if we get the other two(2nd layer) panels of glass it will be warmer in there overnight. I painted two big 55 gallon drums black and filled them with water, which has been getting warmer with these last few hot days. I feel for the plants, they have been exposed to 32 degrees and all the way up to 100. I'm kinda surprised anything is alive when I think about the extremes that have been in there lately. Most of the plants seem to be in a holding pattern, although the geraniums are slowly blossoming. It is fun to already have some plants in there, even though I don't know that they will really produce, but it feels like an experiment on many levels.
I have learned several construction techniques,(like putting ice and water shield on the roof, screwing on the insulation, and cutting Sollex, which is a plastic card boardish stuff we made the west wall out of) I think mainly because B. is on the verge of burnout..and wants me to do as much as possible. With the nice weather he wants to go play instead of work on the greenhouse. I have a job (or two) so my time is sporadic and inconsistent. I wish I had more time to devote to the project, but I am not knowledgeable to do a lot of what needs doing, and my shoulder has been giving me troubles, so I am not able to lift the kind of weight I want to lift, and that is aggravating.
The up side is that the little house is more beautiful than I would have ever dreamed of, and it will keep plants growing for a long time to come. It is very peaceful and smells like a greenhouse already, and it fills my lungs with the best moist and oxygen experience!! The bees(and other insects) are very attracted to coming inside, but don't seem to remember where the door is. I could spend a lot of time just trapping insects to let out again.
Anyway, I want to blab and blab about how cool it is to have this new creation in our lives, but I think you probably get that it is a long time dream to have such a thing in my life.
On another front, The Prince (Charles) our wonky outdoor cat is slowly but surely getting a palace that I am putting together with the scraps from our other building project and from some of dumpster dives I have come across. He was neutered in August and that has made him all the sweeter, he hangs out with us and watches us work now, and is ever so much more interested in pets and encouraging words...not to mention meals as close together as possible. Sometimes when he is hungry he taps my shoe with his paw as if to hurry me along. He's just such a cool guy. Anyway, I hope to have more blog time in the near future, and maybe because the weather will change soon, we won't have ever spare minute sucked up in our construction project. Hope to get pics up soon too.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Bladder, blither, blum

The last few daze I have been having a bladder infection, which is a periodic bummer my body seems to throw at me when I least expect it...perhaps my bladder was compromised as a youth before people thought of giving their kids water to drink, and it is weak,and maybe needs a break from coffee... Anyway, I feel better today with the help of the BBM (Big Beautiful Man)in my life giving my neck and shoulders some massage relief, and some good old fashion rest. I did sleep a big sleep and that seems to have healing powers like no other thing.
When I have felt like it I have been going through the huge pile of apple branches left from the tree removal, and that is a slow meditation on sorting, stacking, and chipping. The BBM has been digging the whole hole for the foundation of the greenhouse. I wish I knew how to post the pictures of that, but someday that will come, just you wait. I still need guidance on how to download pictures to where they are wanted.
Another thing is that blogging, even though it's fun, there are so many other things to do in life besides sitting in front of a computer when there are these lovely days of late summer happening. This morning there was a crispness in the breeze that comes on fall mornings, and it is to be enjoyed at it's fullest....why am I sitting here, then? Well, I have a twinge of guilt that now I have a blog, I must feed it some time too. But that's enough for now. I have compost to turn, and branches to sort and and and. Life is good.

Friday, July 31, 2009

The last day of July

It has been quite the summer, and although fascinating, very different. We have had 6 inches over our average rainfall and some of the most powerful hail/lightening storms I've ever seen. Yesterday it was so chilly when I woke up that I built a fire. Strange to be lighting a fire in the living room in July. Usually we are so welcoming of the cool morning that we go out into it and suck it into our pores and hope we can hold that sensation well into the heat of the blistering afternoon...but the heat from the fire was welcome and felt great. Unusual.
It's interesting to notice which plants have made a comeback from all the damage the hail caused, and which have remained just a green stick. Some of the peppers never did sprout any more leaves, but haven't really officially died. Thistles and bindweed have thrived and are bursting with incredible vigor. I did give my tomatoes a shot of Epsom salts to encourage growth, but I have little hope for actual ripe tomatoes by the end of August.
We are planning to build a greenhouse soon, and in that process we think it is best to take out an apple tree that is not doing so well, and this year has no apples what so ever...maybe one at the very top that is battered and small, but really nothing that would feed more than a passing bird landing there for a rest. The thought of taking down any tree twists my heart a bit, I know I have had that tree in my life for the last 14 or 25 years and we are considered friends. The tree experts we had come to look at that tree have said systemic chemical insecticides are the only hope...that doesn't sound like a good idea. The plus side is that apple wood is hard wood and will keep us warm real good in the winter months...and as the poem says, "dying is what the living do"...it is part of the cycle to give it up. We will still have two apple trees that are alive...and two plums and raspberries, and, and and.It might give the garden some more light also. I must remember that it isn't all bad.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Words from the way past that still hold true...

By Alastair Reid

Curiosity

may have killed the cat; more likely
the cat was just unlucky, or else curious
to see what death was like, having no cause
to go on licking paws, or fathering
litter on litter of kittens, predictably.

Nevertheless, to be curious
is dangerous enough. To distrust
what is always said, what seems
to ask odd questions, interfere in dreams,
leave home, smell rats, have hunches
do not endear cats to those doggy circles
where well-smelt baskets, suitable wives, good lunches
are the order of things, and where prevails
much wagging of incurious heads and tails.

Face it. Curiosity
will not cause us to die--
only lack of it will.
Never to want to see
the other side of the hill
or that improbable country
where living is an idyll
(although a probable hell)
would kill us all.

Only the curious have, if they live, a tale
worth telling at all.

Dogs say cats love too much, are irresponsible,
are changeable, marry too many wives,
desert their children, chill all dinner tables
with tales of their nine lives.
Well, they are lucky. Let them be
nine-lived and contradictory,
curious enough to change, prepared to pay
the cat price, which is to die
and die again and again,
each time with no less pain.
A cat minority of one
is all that can be counted on
to tell the truth. And what cats have to tell
on each return from hell
is this: that dying is what the living do,
that dying is what the loving do,
and that dead dogs are those who do not know
that dying is what, to live, each has to do.

Prince is all wet.

This morning was all wet, and so was the Prince, who is my wonky stray cat who loves to come to my kitty soup kitchen for breakfast /dinner, maybe a little brushing and a few kind words.